They say time is a good healer...

Mastectomy. Three years on…

They say time is a healer, and it is!

Well here we are! Three years later. It has definitely taken a long time to accept what has happened to me. In the beginning I was definitely naïve. I had no idea what was about to happen to me and my body. To protect myself, I stayed positive knowing I'd have, ‘nice bouncy new boobs’. I’m far from that! And I could keep going back for surgery to match them, but in reality, the surgical team don’t want to do it, for whatever reason. So, for now I have to accept the facts. I have one artificial boob and one normal boob. They will never look the same. They don’t match and finding clothes to disguise this is hard. But I finally accept this.

On the other hand, I’m still so grateful to be here, for early diagnosis and treatment. It doesn’t stop the anger at times. To have been in this situation and the ongoing hormone treatment that makes me feel like shit. I’ve been having a break from tamoxifen since July. Ssh. Don’t tell the doctors! I have been trialling a break for myself, but to be honest, I don’t feel any better, so I will be going back on it after my upcoming holiday. I would rather take it to be a little bit protected.

So for any newbies out there, recently diagnosed or going through treatment, it does get better, but it does take time. Be gentle on yourself and surround yourself with beautiful, positive vibes, whatever that may be for you! CHECK YOUR BOOBS!!!!!

Love and light.

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